shit gets real...

it's not a new thing that I am pregnant - I have known for 5 months now (exactly!).  up until this point, it has been kind of a surreal and sort of, abstact thing, despite the regular kicks and thumps from my darling little monster.  today though, shit got real, as far as this whole 'baby' thing is concerned.  I scheduled our labor & delivery tours at two different hospitals.  I registered us for a Newborn Care & Saftey class, and a Preparing for Breastfeeding class.  to top it off, I spent 20 minutes hooked up to a fetal heart and contraction monitor (all is well, perfect heartbeat & no contractions).  it feels good to actually do something to get ready for baby T to get here, however, it all boils down to one thought now.  I am actually going to have to give birth.  in the not to distant future.  and it is getting closer everyday.  and I am so NOT ready for that part of things.  oh crap.